Today I came across a couple of tweets in my timeline that had something in common. Each of them talked about songs that cause depression to set in. I don’t care who you are, if you love music (like me), you have music categorized in your head, and maybe in your iPod, according to emotion. If I want to dance, I turn on some Missy, Janet, MJ, some old Total and few others. Oh, can’t forget Diddy (gotta do my Diddy bop at some point). If I’m relaxed, I have my Jilly and Badu.
If I’m feeling lovey dovey, there’s 112, Kels, my crush, The Dream and a ton of old school stuff. If I’m feeling a lil gangsta, there’s any record recorded by a Memphian (Ball & G, 3-6, Gotti) or UGK and Pac. But if I want to lay in my bed in the fetal position, or stare at the walls while sitting Indian style, I have music for that, too. Here’s a very short list of the most depressing songs I can think of off the top of my head. Enjoy…or don’t enjoy.
Where I Wanna Be ~ Donnell Jones
It was 1999, my freshman year of college, and Donnell was hot back then. He dropped this single and we (women) went crazy. For atleast three months straight, every time my suitemate heard the first two notes of that song, she damn near had a nervous break down. And every time I wanted someone to push me down the stairs backwards. Everyone on the planet must have been in fading relationships because it was played nonstop. If hearing this from the one you love doesn’t depress you, I don’t know what will:
Cuz when you love someone, you just don’t treat them bad
Oh, how I feel so sad now that I wanna leave
She’s crying her heart to me.
How could you let this be?
I just need time to see where I wanna be.
You Made a Fool of Me ~Me’Shell N’Degochello
Was I only the one on the verge of tears during the “play for your heart” basketball scene in Love and Basketball?
I want to kiss you
Does she want you with the pain that I do
I smell you in my dreams
But now when we’re face to face you won’t look me in the eye
No time no friendship no love
Don’t say don’t touch you I can’t touch you no more
Can’t touch you any more any more
I don’t touch you anymore
(Any song from the My Life album, but specifically) I”m Going Down ~ Mary J. Blige
When I bought My Life at age 14, I was clearly too young to understand what any of those songs meant, but when my friends and I popped that CD in, we turned into 30+ women who’d just been to hell and back…all at the expense of a man. I felt her voice, but I didn’t understand the place she was coming from then. From that point on, if I was feeling “some kinda way,” I turned to My Life, and as depressing as it was, somehow, I always felt better afterward.
Note: I actually DON’T like this song. It’s TOO depressing. This is my one and only “skip” song on My Life.
The Love I Never Had (Mary)
What a Debbie Downer, but oh, so true.
You know sometimes there come a time in your life
When you love something
You have to let it go
And even though you might feel there’s still something there
You have to wake up. Stop living in a dream
Cause it’s over now
You got to think about you
Tough love, huh?
Green Eyes ~ Erykah Badu
This is the break-up song. This song was proof that even the most intriguing and fabulous get their fair share of heartbreak.
Never knew that love could hurt like this
Never thought I would but i got dissed
Makes me feel so bad and hurt inside
Feel embarrassed so I want to hide
Cause I Love You ~ Lenny Williams
No explanation needed, right? That was a hurt man. Ummph. *rocks back and forth*
I know I missed plenty. Add to the list!